GIRL'S LIFE

Sometimes i  think that why god made girls n boys differently .Ya i very well know the reason but still want to vent my frustration n anger in some way . Why only girls are made to suffer n boys enjoy ?Why is there so much discrimination between boys n girls.Girls are always required to behave properly n in a sober way but for boys everything is allowed.




Boys should be given some portion of pain that girls go through .A bit of trauma n melancholy that are part n parcel of a girl's life.Some amount of sensibility that girls are bestowed with . Some amount of logical thinking.
Some amount of understanding .




A girl's life is all about bearing pain through out life whether be it before marriage , after marriage or even in old age. Ya they are made that way .They have the inherent capacity to bear pain n show as if nothing has happened n they r fit n fine .




But the best part of being a girl is that they get love from every one they desire , they are there Daddy's girls to their lover's princess .So this is the only one department where they score more then boys .Boys to get love from their loved ones but hardly the love is shown openly.Love is the only one thing that compensated to everything else. Otherwise it's hard to be a girl coz girl's life is no mean deal n it's hard to live the way they live. 

SOMEDAYS YOU LOVE ME

Somedays you see me
Somedays you miss me
Somedays you call me 
Somedays you talk to me
Somedays you love me 
Somedays you hate me 




Somedays you try to remember me
Somedays you try to forget me 
Somedays you try bore me
Somedays you try to entertain me




Somedays you leave me 
Somedays you try to follow me
Somedays you try to understand me 
Somedays you try to believe me 



Somedays you try to hurt me 
Somedays you try to kill me

Somedays you try to touch me 

Somedays you try to kiss me .

KURBAAN HUA

Why make me know the depth of your love
Why make me so used to you
that it's hard to be alone
Why make me your breaths
so when i am gone you are dead
Why keep me in your eyes
When tears will wipe me off
Why make me stay in your memories
that it's hard to forget me





Why make me your smiles?
Why think of me in your dreams?
Why make me streams
from your eyes?
Why make me your life?

YOU CAME YOU WENT

You came
you looked
you touched
you felt
you stirred
you went .


The looks on your face
the love in your voice
the care in your talks
the warmth in your hugs
the support of your shoulders
the joy in your smile
the heart heavy with memories
everything is fresh.


You were my days
you were my nights
you were my autums
and the springs bright.


The purpose of my existence
the reason behind my smile
the reason behind my feelings
the whisper in my voice
the secret behind my desires.



You were the only star of my nights
only rays of my life
only drops of my eyes
only passion of my life
only companion by my side.



I wanted to tell you things that i never could
i wanted to lean on your shoulders that i never did
i wanted to take your worries n tensions which you never gave
i wanted to hug you which i never did
i wanted to kill you for making me feel the way you did
i wanted to love you like anything.


You are now so far
that i can not
see you
touch you
hear from you
talk to you
feel your pain
heal you
sooth you
but i love you.

ANATOMY OF A BOY - PART 3

Well the topic is anatomy of boy’s mind, if only they had one .Ya they have theirs minds in perfect place it’s only when they see a beautiful girl that their senses starts leaving n their wits end n they are short of words. Suddenly, their adrenaline levels start increasing, they can neither control their flow of emotions not the nascent smile plastered on their faces .If there is any beautiful girl around they have this unique six sense that works in their favor n they can trace her within minutes no seconds .Whenever they are with any beautiful girl their mental level drops from say level 5 x to x n in the end they end up doing weird stuffs n the girl in question is like WHAT?

Every boy is born differently with different values, different thoughts, and different perceptions n different outlook towards life. So , every boy needs to be tackled differently .If one kind of talks can sooth one , the same type of talks can offend others n same kind of talk can irritate other .So, the key is to maintain the balance n behave in the way that is acceptable to the other.

What is going on in the boy’s mind that any girl can measure in a split second .From that one single look , one single smile or one single action n sometimes it so happens that they end up making a fool of themselves in front of everyone. Recently, something happened with me which made me laugh even more at stupidities of boys .I went to give an interview some time back with my dad n there was one boy who entered with his mom , from looks n all he looked quiet decent n was good looking n all .So I simply looked at him n caught him looking at me so I thought it was ok he would stop it after sometimes but as I was with my dad so I did feel a bit uncomfortable but his staring thing never ended n this time my dad too caught him n showed him eyes but he continued .Finally the time came when he was about to leave n that shameless guy was still staring n walking .As he was doing all this he never saw the glass door n banged his head on it n fell flat on ground. What a scene, I just couldn’t control my laughter n he ran away in embracement.

But at heart basically every boy is week .However hard he tries to project himself strong n manly but the truth is they have a very very delicate heart .They care for you like anything , when you are in some difficulty they are the ones who show you the way out .They are their for you as your friends , as your partners in crime or your initiatives. When they like you ,u can measure their thoughts in seconds they have such an expression on their face , such a reverberance in their voice , such a feeling in their heart .That it is difficult to ignore them. Even they have everything in the world but they are gasping for your word , your talks , your thoughts n your reactions. When they are with you they are complete , when distant then also they are happy but .................................ALONE.


Inside every boy there is a child who wants love, who is desperate for attention n care n who is delicate n soft but projects to be rock solid n steady . They need a girl who can tame their habits, mend their ways n spoil their thoughts n actions.

TIME AND TIDE WAIT FOR NONE

Why GOD , why me everytime , enough is enough .Just now wrote such a beautiful blog n every thing gone in vain .The whole post got deleted , the same very post in which i wrote my heart out , the same very post which would have created "sansani" .But what to do , bullshit man , it's gone now n im an ameature when it comes to technicla matters.God also did not want my feelings n my expressions to comeout in open .You , God TUSSI GREAT HO BOSS.

Well , i had made a firm resolution from now on not to display my personal life anymore to anyone , enough of posts full of love n all , suddenly i have realised there are other things also in the world which needs my immediate attention , time is running out n i am lagging behind.It is just like a dream where you try to gat up n run but your feets turn numb n how ever hard u try to get u pn going everything goes in vain.

Love is not that important if considered from the time perspective as of now , something more important has captured my fantasies n it needs immediate attention.As it is said that " Time n tide wait for none " n it will neihter wait for me coz i am no one so special n till now i can not seee neiter the shores not the light house ,aree light house to dekh jaana chaheye tha wait , let me just look around it's far i guess appearing blurred but will appear clear soon.

So, all this thoughts are hitting on my mind thanks to Momma dear's scolding n to initiate some kind of seriousness n responsibility in me n leave this laid back attitute otherwise in ths times to come i will suffer .Ya there must be soem kind of so called "sacchaiye " or rather this is my moment of "sach ka samna".Ya i know she hates the way i keep looking at myself in the mirror all the time or my wierd dressing sense(only at home ) outside always i am dresses properly or the way i cut my hair to form the " lat " hehe funny ya but she needs regular doeses of disprin to keep her cool.

Ya pondering over i really came out of my thought process even more confused ,perplexed n a bit shaky n m shaking right now too( no puns intended palese), getting naught day by day.It's beeeeen so many years since i came to this so called planet "Earth " come again that is not a mystery anymore n have not done nything exxxacctly anything productive.I always wanted people to remember me even after i am gone n to some an extent this has come true but now it's miles to go before i sleep kind of situation , so get up Sonali pull up your sockes n get going .

THREAD OF LOVE

Howere hard i try to run away from love, realstionships etc etc. why does it always happens that it finds me .Why why me everytime , even if m not ready for this love thing why people approach me evn when they know that this road is under construction n will require some time to mend ...But is being frank a crime , venting your thoughts in open an offence , being friendly n nice to people a sin.Then call me a sinner. I never tried to hurt anyone , i never tried to project false dreams n thoughts in anyones mind , then what is my fault that everytime it happens with me.I can see that lve in your eyes but i can not reciprocate that love in my eyes.I am simply so sorry.The more i hurt you the more i get hurt.Why people run after things which don't exist , why people think things which are no longer present.Past is dead , it's memories buried but pain fresh. Time is a great healer it will heal every thing n things are getting healed then why pressing me to remember all that happened , why to feel the same seperation pangs , why to feel the same feeling of loss when everything is over.How can anyone love someone so much to leave him for his good. Love will find it's way n i will also learn to love n one day i will also be able to give that special someone in my life all that he wants but for the time being i am fed up of saying no .I know people might be thinking that i am arrogant n choosy but my friend am just patient. At one time there did exist threads of love that were meant to go stonger n stronger but who would have thought that one very day that very thread of love would be strtched so much that it would break. I am fed up literaly of people asking me about my past n about my future n when will i say yes or no.I myself don't know .At this very moment i am very much single n want to remain like that what happens tommorow even i am not aware may be this single tag is replaced by some complicated word but as for now single n whether ready or not ready that i myself am confused. AT this present time i am short of words don't know what to say , what to speak or what to tell or what to think.