STILL SINGLE

DISCLAMER: This post has no relation with anyone , it is a mere imagination n any resemblance with someone is purely a coincedence.

It was around 5 pm , she saw the time an a faint smile spread on her face .Ya today was the day she was going to meet the special someone of her life whom she has never met , never seen but then also there was some kind of connection , some kind of intimacy n some kind of feelings in her heart for her.She started remenbering how it all started some months back, they simply chatted on social networking site n found each other interesting enough to exchange their mobile no.s and the first time he called her voice choked but he made her feel comfortable n at ease. So , there relationship started , talking hours n hours over phone , forgetting the difference between day n night they were lost in their own world of fantasy.

Slowly n slowly the distance between them was extinguishing , they were never this close.Everything was so very good.She was flying in the air n this kind of feeling she had never ever experienced so it was like a fairy tail romance for her.She was lost in her own world , even though people used to scold her or be angry with her she used to constantly smile. Ya she was in love .

She realised it the other day when he confessed his feelings for her and she was got this unique feeling that could not be described in words.She thought this is it n she has got everything in the whole world n now she does not long for anything because she has got the most precious thing in the whole world , the love of his life.

Comming from the memory lane she saw the watch it was 6 pm .Today they had decided to meet at Lover's spot at about 7 pm so she started to get ready . 7PM: She was there , waited for the boy then suddenly saw someone comming from a distance and in one gaze she knew it was him .Her heart beat started razing, her mind started running faster than the wind , she went numb.

Just then she saw him moving away from her in opposite direction n she thought it was not him so she tried calling her mobile no. it was comming that the mobile you are trying to call is currently switched off , she called n called , no responses followed.

10 PM:It was getting darker n colder n she was getting hotter n hotter in utter disgust , numerous questions were going on in her mind whic only n only he could have answered.So , she went home, layed on her bed but no sleep , only n only tears .

11AM the next day:She called his cell , finally the ring was going , she inhaled a deep breath the waited for the call to be picked."Heloo , who is this ?" , came the reply from other side .

She told about her ,the persn went mm then told her that he was his friend n when she asked that why he never came to meet her. His friend told her that he went to meet her but after seeing her , he ran from there n was no more interested in her.

She went shocked , She thought that " was her love fake?" ," is beauty only skin deep ", why is it important for only girls to look good n attractive , is love only confined to outward projections .

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................................................................... ............................................. ............. FEW MONTHS AFTER : She recieved the phone call n was shocked to find his voice heating her ears he said , " Hi there , I am still single would you like to do time pass with me till the time i find my girl friend?" *This story is a true incidence faced by one of my friend .

I AM IN LOVE

When you are in love , everything starts appearing like heaven , you start flying in the thin air without any support , you simply start getting this unique feeling that can not be expressed in words. Ya really , love makes the world go round and round and yes i am in love this time round.

Yes i am in love with this weather .If thinking about something else then hmmm may be just have to wait for sometime more time , may be just a few months.

Ever since i was 11 , i wanted to become 17 ,there was so much excitement , so much fun to be 17 .When i was 14 , i don't know and it might sound wierd , but i wanted to get married at the age of 14 years and marry after running n still this thing is somewhere running deep within me.I even made a plan to run away to Darjeeling with special someone and enjoy for somedays and then return n i have also decided that i wil run in the months of november or december n return by feburary after V- Day gets over.

WOW !! what a thought , i simply don't know when this dream of mine will convert into reality but this is my firm believe that one day i will make that happen. I have started working towards it earnestly , just few months more then i would be free bird , i would run in the beautiful hills filled with the scent of nature and in the bed of beautifull mountains and fountains. Speaking truely i am getting quiet desperate but i am not some desperato. But the only repent that i have is that i don't have any window in my room from where i could run away ,may be firstly i should think of making that window itself.Jokes apart , i simply love those kind of guys who can play guiter , they just turn so romantic with guiter in one hand playing "Tu hi mere sab hai...", the gr88 ganster song and flower in one hand , preferablr red rose and then sway towards the one and kneel down n say in the husky n deep voice those magical 3 words that have made the world go mad n crazy even at the thought of it.

I simply love it yaar.

From the starting only my funda of life was quiet simple , i just wanted to enjoy life to the tee so that when i grow 70 years of age i could simply go back on memories lane to those beautiful years behind.

I had made certain kind of list of sort about the things i needed to do before dying.

The first one is discolsed earlier and the next one is to dring desi darru or bhang whichever is the convinent option , ones n only ones and get fultoo talli n do all kinds of masti possible , which i do always even before getting talli but this time i simply want to break all the previous records of pagalpanti coz as it is said that pagalpanti bhi jaroori hai.

But only ones because i am a decent gal n decent gals don't indulge in too much of these things.

The next , weird imagination of my freaking mind from the starting itself , it might invoke responses like " WHAT ". I simply love kids and whenever i get time i simply gather as many kids as possible and play with them their games n introduce new games to them, it is so much fun n so much satisfying coz they are the ones who don't pass judgement on you , if you love them they will reciprocate the same love n affection.SO , my wish is to have as many kids as possible. No NO , that was a joke .I simply want to do something for kids and be with them as much as possible.

Hope someday this comes into reality n i am eagerly waiting since so many years as someone had promised me all this but as now he is not there anymore but still that dream instilled in my eyes by him is alive and i will relive it if not with him , then with some one else.After all this is life about moving on and accepting those who come your way.

AN EYE FOR AN EYE

Just came after seeing the so called Horror show , Bigg Boss 3 coz i got to know from somewhere that in today's show Raju Srivastav's pants were going to be pulled so waited for about 1 hr for that moment to come but unfortunately that was censored , unlucky me. Atleast Tv pe to kuch intresstng dekh lete .

Then i thought that someone has suggested me to write a post so here i am .

What to write so many things , so lil space , so lil time .

Life is unpredictable, twisted , n of course complex.There are thousands people who hide their real faces behind grabs ,they wear masks everywhere , they simply fool people by showing them there unreal self.It is only after some time of knowing them you get to know who they really are .I simply hate them , they are bloody fakers.

If you have the real guts within yourself , simply go and show your true colors to the world. Stop acting innocent when you really are not SO WHY HIDE THINGS.I respect those who are open about what they are and what they feel about others rather keeping things in hidding and fooling others .I am the kind of person who respects people for what they are , if you are nice to me then i am double the times nice to you but if you try to fool me , may be ones i will get fooled but twice never .If someone says anything against me i prefer keeping mum rather let my actions do the talking .If by simply looking at me people get an impression that i am quiet seedhi n can be fooled easily to them i say helloo looks can be decpetive.

BOYS , what to say boys are idiots, big time fools (Sorrry exceptions are there).Sometimes i get trapped n feel like running to a place where i don't get to see them , don't get to listen to them and don'nt get to hear from them.I have seen time n again then more then loooks n all boys get attracted to my talks n that's not my fault i can not help it n i can not change it coz if i will remove that from me then i will not remain myself. It is simple that the way i talk to girls i talk to boys and if that makes the difference i simply don't know.But by god's grace i have got friends who like me and they know my true self , i accept that i have done loads of stupidity and i repent for it ,i have hurt people but now i accept it .

Love the person who loves you

People say that if they have to choose between breathing and loving there lover they would choose loving then imagining there life without there love.

So ,true and so touchy .Some say that when they get up in the morning they simply get smile on their face by just remebering there love .Whenever i go around here and there i see people going mad in love , doing crazy things to there love and i don't know why that brings a strange kind of smile on my face and i simply could not stop gushing seeing this some say yr these are little -little things which are expressions of love and care .But i think that sometimes it is not neccesary to do all this things to show love for each other .

Love happens simply when the other person gets to know what you want by simply looking in your eyes.

it simply happens when your voice ,

your pain ,

your desperation reaches his heart without you telling anything.

Love is a gamble , if you get involved with the right person then it is a win-win situation but if got trapped with the wrong person at the wrong place and at wrong time then you will be left with only pain and dejection .So , love the person who loves you for what you are , rather then who wants you to change for something.

No one can ever trust a person in a short span of time , people change with time and there outlook towards you also change .Beware of those who are quiet and speak less because the person who speaks a lot is a lot open and tend to tell everything about him but those who speak less tend to hide a lot within themselves and in the long run you get to know that they are not what they did tend to predict.

Love always is not about recieving , it is about giving , it is about sacrificing.

True love is always incomplete because there is a sense of unfinished romance,

unfinished passion ,

unfinised hope.

It is the greatest thing in the whole world to let your love go away from you and keep a smile on your face even though your heart cries ,

your soul weeps and your body hurts.

People will not understand why you still run after things that no longer exists , why you still dream about things which are gone , why you still long , why you still think.

But the greatest proof of love to be true is when you wish from your heart and soul that even though the person might be far from , you even though his face be blurred with time,even though he might have forgotten you , even thought he might have not that much time to think about you .But you wish that the person gets all the happiness in the world , his desires and dreams comes true.

Why people after comming at this age long to be in a relationship , i too am getting dragged into thinking all this thanks to my friend i don't know what has suddenly happened to singles around , they are like find bf/gf and get involved with them. The desperation , the distance and the unfounf suspence is very much evident .People think who would be the one whom i will love with my heart and soul for ages to come .

Everybody of us have some kind of dreams in our eyes which we want to accomplish with that special one , some special dates and some special talks .Well talking about dates every one has some special kind of thoughts about there first date that would make them remeber it for the rest of their lives , it should be some thing very very special , and it does not mean that it should be ladened with material possesion rather it should be the kind uniting heart with heart imbibed in care , sprinkled with affection and coated with love.

SELF REDISCOVERY

So , it's been quiet a while that i have written something and the reason is that was in no mood and had complete brain drain and just wanted to rediscover the inner " ME " , which was slowly fading away and i was suffocated amids so much happenings that i was desperately needing some time to think over things and decide as to what i really wanted from life.

Well past is gone and future is waiting and hopefully it would be full of harbinger of good news (at least can think so ).Life is back on track with every day bringing new challenges , new goals and new accomplishments.

My God this post is going really duuuh!! ,so boring ,really nothing can get so monotonous then this so switching over to my style.

Most of time i meet such people in my life that i don't know why they either consider me a fool or themselves expert , that they start preaching .I simply don't know why this happens to me they make there own perception about what is happening in my life , about my past or about my coming future .These are the guys who know everything and if you have any doubts then simply go to them they will answer your queries .Some suggested Sonali you are still trapped in your past and you still love that guy very much and you are sad because of it , i think you must read this n this book to gain wisdom. And i was like WTF ??

RULE 1: Keep distance from boys and sometimes gals too?

Reason for distance from boys coz 1 day they can take you for granted ,even if you shout at them you can not help that smile and this smile can be deadly coz then they will start noticing your smile rather than measuring your anger.

For girls , what to say i simply don't know why girls stare at you for boys it's ok but girls and secondly 1 girl complemeinting other that needs some pondering.

Rather become that truck on which it is written"keep distance".

RULE 2 :Never smile at BOYS

They can take it other way round so keep the simple hi 's n hello's no how r u?

"1 Smile ki kimat tum kya jaano ,

boys ke dil tak ka rasta hote hai ek smile,

dooriyan mitane ka tareeka hote hai ek smile ,

dilon ko dhadkane ki wajah hote hai ek smile."

RULE 3:Never disclose your mobile no.

Especially to boys ,

they say hey Sonali

your land line no is 0522-4010***

your mobile no. is 9935******

and your dad's no. is 9935******

n u r like since when my no.s became official n they r like remember your CV .

I simply don't know what is so much interesting to know about girl's mobile no.

Common quest. asked by boys :-

1. Can i have your mobile no.?

2.OK you can have my mobile no . if not comfortable with giving yours?

3.We can at lest talk via sms ?

4.I will sms you only after 2 am ?

5. Hey you can also give your friends mobile no. if you wish?

RULE 3:Do what your intuition tells you

Never believe on something unless and until it is proved , don't tell a lie coz ones started with lies then it will be hard to get out of this whole trap.Follow your heart if you think you would be comfortable doing the thing and confident of yourself go do it . Do things for yourself then thinking of other's coz they never have the same heart as you have ,they might not do what you did for them .So stop acting so generous.

RULE 4:Never give sangs

Wheter it be simple idiot , duffer , pagal and KT's included coz one day they can get converted into bigger ones then you will find no place to hide your face.It is only today tat i came to know that futoo (darpok) is a slang.

So , know this post is looking like a rule book , good . but lastly one important things that rules are meant to be broken so lil bit manipulation here and there is allowed.I guess this post is not up to mark and is as haphazard as my mind which is wandering here and there it will take some more time to settle down to it's normal freaky self , so next post will be improved for sure till that time be contended with this crap.

Simpy do what your mann says and go where your heart takes you , stop being judgemental and start believing in yourself.